A couple things happened that caused my feelings to be
hurt. Some was a gentle reproach from a
friend, some was me stepping out of my comfort zone, not communicating well and
the consequences of stepping out.
It was these instances that an opportunity for growth
happened. I was led to read about love
in 1 Corinthians 13 in the Amplified Bible.
It is not
conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude
(unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly.
Love (God’s love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its
own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or
resentful; it take no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a
suffered wrong]. 1 Cor 13:5 (underline added)
Oh my, this verse cut down to what I was doing. I was allowing my perceived rights, my
fleshly sinful desires, my pride to prohibit me from loving. The verse converged Love and pride in my
heart. I knew I could love better, now I
could see that my pride got in the way!
My touchy feelings were a response of my pride. I was looking for me to be safe and
protected. I wanted to be right. I wanted to disregard what others thought,
even though part of stepping out of my comfort was to see what other thought.
This line of thinking would lead me to be rude as I carried
out my own preferences. For me to stop
seeking others input. For others, because of my response, would
withhold edifying responses.
I have God’s love in me.
Thank you Lord for showing another aspect of my pride. Please continue to humble me in Your love.
I love this! The word that caught me was UNBECOMING.
ReplyDeleteThat pretty much sums it up for me..do not act or do whatever is unbecoming of you. Great post! Loved it!!
Thank you Nikki. Unbecoming also stuck out to me. I've just realized that touchy is how God describes my feeling when my pride is involved.
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