There I was. I had made my plans, frustrated that things weren’t going as I planned. I was ill. I wasn’t sleeping well. It was easier to go to the convenient food than the planned food. I was tired, so I skipped the exercise. A reasonable mind would have accepted an alternate way because of the physical issues. Issues that would resolve once the cough didn’t wake me up at night. However, a reasonable mind was gone. I was condemning myself. I asked God to help me, yet I wasn’t displaying much self-control.
I worked myself up. I prepared to have a long prayer once my girl was in school and beg God to bless this plan of mine. To help me have the self-control.
That’s when I was redirected. What had I asked for and not made a priority? What was I placing at the bottom of my list (to easily I might add)?
Succumb into submission, I asked for forgiveness from God. Here I was spending all my time dwelling on what I was doing and no time to what I wasn’t doing.
I wasn’t doing my Bible study. I elected to start another study, so I had two I hadn’t touched for two days.
Here I was frustrated over my food and sleep, but not over my lack of time in the Word. Yes, I needed repentance. I opened the book and got busy. Oh, my Father taught me much over the next few days.