I put in a prayer request: God's wisdom as I work with doctors concerning my knee and discipline to do what I need to do to rest the knee over the next month.
No sooner than it became public did I receive a test. I get a call from Kat's principal. They need a short term position filled and he thought of me first.
Flip back a few years ago. My daughters in school full time. I felt a huge pressure to find a full time job. This pressure was from outside my immediate family - like my dad, the world in general. I still couldn't handle the thought of Kat being in childcare. If she was available to be with me, I wanted to be available to be with her.
Logical choice was to work for the school in some way. I'm not a teacher, so that was out. I pleaded with the principal for a job so that I could have something to do with my time. Good thing he didn't allow that crazy woman to work for him besides subbing a few time (a part time career that took a nose dive quick).
This job offer, although temporary, would lead to a permanent position, at least year to year, if I took it. It meant I would need to give up the volunteer work I do. The Bible study class I'm in. Quiet study time for counseling training (CT). Oh, and that rest my knee needs.
I talked with Dale before saying no, but I knew I had to say no. I would have grasp my own dream, desire, not what God had for me. I would do more damage to my knee in hopes of getting a job to please the world.
For that obedience, my Wednesday schedule was cleared off so I could finish the work I have for CT that starts back up next week.
And before we have a cheer over my obedience, I wavered throughout the afternoon. Not in terms of calling him back to take the positions. In terms of envisioning a job at the school and being on Kat's schedule, ect. The ease (or so I think) of such a job. That's worldly ease at that. I simply had a stern talk and reminded myself of God's plan for me and the trust I have in those plans. If I am to work at the school, God will open the door for me to do so and that is the end of that.