I missed my turn. I was driving to Bible Study and after a month of driving to this location I missed my turn. I suppose I was lost in thought. Ok, I would just turn at the next street. Then I arrived at the street in which I normally turn, but now I would do so much back tracking, surely it would be better to continue down this street - it is bound to arrive in the same place. Yet, I was in a subdivision from the 70/80. You know the ones without a straight road to be found. I was curving and turning, but I got to the other side. Sitting at the stop sign on County Line Rd. I had a choice to go left or right. I couldn't see any landmarks to help my decision. My internal sense said to turn left. So I took a deep breath and turned right. In a quarter mile I was on the road I needed (and had to back track the same amount if I had taken the turn earlier.)
It made me think that so many times in my life I think I'm making the right decision. My sinful nature that died when I accepted Christ still has lingering habits of sin. That "natural" tendency is opposite of the supernatural Christ in me.
My choices can often be self serving and for my kingdom. Sometimes when my heart resists something - I purposely do it for I know it is the right thing to do.
Times I've been aware of this:
Desire to not do the dishes - allowing the lazy person in me to put it off.
Desire to hang onto our money and not give the offering - trusting money rather than God's provision.
Desire to stay home - allowing self focused time trump fellowship with others.
Desire to eat that sugar laden treat, which will cause headaches, sugar surge and further cravings in addition to bloating.
Desire to take the easy way - when God has a lot to teach in the journey.
So to purposely choose what I know is right, but is against my flesh is hard. I was reminded of 2 Corinthians 12:9 "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made
perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about
my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
May I allow God's grace to help me.