I set guards around calculating when I would be done with the last phase of counseling certification. Knowing myself, I knew I would become focused on the end, not the journey and knew the disappointment, frustration and all that other stuff that would come when it didn't just happen.
Guess what? It happened anyway. I am down to the last part of my hours and calculated when I would possible be finished...and it wasn't the date in which I hoped for. It wasn't the timing I wanted. And all those emotions/distraction moved into my heart and sat there.
I prayed over it. I asked for God's will, hoping that somehow my schedule would be His schedule. The reasons I wanted to finish were clear - so I could move on to other things. My attitude began to sour when a session was cancelled.
I immediately moved to thanking God for the occasion rather than entertaining the pity party that wanted to avail itself.
Whenever the sour thoughts come, I praise God, declaring I trust Him, His timing purpose.
Then it hit me: God is giving me the time now! I don't have to wait until the end to do some things. I can do them now - if I stop allowing empty activities to take away my time.
God is good to me (Psalm 13.)