It turned into one of those days. It began with the dentist, giving into a craving for fast food. Then exhaustion kicked in between the two.
Then the thoughts began to creep in. You haven't wrote your report. You haven't prepared for you next session. You haven't read your notes. You haven't finished the living room. Your husband is off working and what are you doing?
You aren't going to finish when you wanted at the rate you are going. Reliability is when you do what you say you will and to completion. Have you really changed? Aren't you just the same person you've always been and never wanted to be?
I had to call these thoughts what they were - stinkin' thinkin'. I am wasting time allowing these thoughts to claim me. I'm missing the time to praise God and have a grateful attitude for the changes that have happened.
Do old habit show up (like poor eating) - yes. Do I have to allow it dominate again? No. Instead of condemning myself as hopeless, I can turn my thoughts to the hope I have, call out the sufficient grace that is available to me. Take hold and refuse to let go until I receive a blessing.
"Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things." Philippians 4:8 (wrote by memory - take that stinkin' thinkin'!)