I had heard the lesson many times, but it finally sunk into my soul. I grasped the whole concept. I am set free from my bondage. It is the need for security. We can seek in vain to be secure. The bank account at just the right amount. The debt paid off. Holding on time to personal information.
Some are paralyzed by the desire to be secure. Their choices are dominated by their fears. Some can't leave their homes. Others will only venture out at just the right time - perhaps when there's no snow/rain/clouds. Some overprotect their children because of fear.
Some are mobilized because of fear. They will work beyond their effective capacity in order to maintain a false sense of security. Some will hover by loved ones, knowing they need to be the one to provide protection.
I heard this message the other way around - where do you place your securities, what idols do you have if it isn't God? Yet to approach it from why I seek security? What in me craves the security?
We were designed to want it. It is part of that God hole in our hearts that we try to foolishly fill with anything other than God. We might even have God in our hearts, but not allow Him to have this area - for we'd be out of control fully dependent on God if that were the case. That. Is. Frightening.
But it can be frightening in a good way.
We are even good at convincing ourselves that we've allowed God into every area of our heart. We think we're dependent on God for security. However, what if my 'secure' life was altered? It's only as secure as right now anyway. What if having needed shelter meant living with a relative instead of my own home? What if after an exhausting day I still had to go cook dinner (not take out)? What if instead of a minor car accident my husband was in that it was a major one? Yeah, that one would be a life changer for sure.
The point is what expectations, demands am I putting on God as a requirement to what security He provides me? Do I expect to continue to live in my home or is shelter - shelter to me? Do I expect my bank account to always be a certain amount or am I content that we have enough? Do I demand to wear certain clothes or are clothes that cover good enough? Do I demand that my family be sheltered from the cruelties of this world or am I confident that God will see me through any obstacle - keeping my mind set on eternity?
What did Jesus do? Did He have a place to lay His head? No (Luke 9:58.) Did He have a bank account? No and the one keeping the money stole it (John 12:6.) Did He always have food fit for a king? No, but He ate well. Did His Father shelter Him from the cruelties of the world? No, He took on the full totality of the cruelties (Isaiah 53.) Why? He had His mind on eternity. He wanted me (and you) to be there with Him. He wanted to free me from seeking security in anything other than His Father. Real security if found no where else. Real security is in God.
So let go of expectations. Let go of worldly fears. Release the layers of self-confidence and need to be self reliant. Take the step to be fully dependent on God. Oh Papa, help me to do just that!