Lighten up

Sometimes I wonder why I get so serious.  I know the Mom in me wants to get everything done - but to what expense?  Is it worth it?

This week I had to back track two commitments I made.  Yup, I had to send one email to say I couldn't make the school function and one phone call.  God made me so uneasy about both - which I am thankful. 

It's my desire to do it all - save the world on my own.  But the world already has a Savior and I'm not it!  What disrespect I show.  How many times does God has to show me before I get it.

I can't volunteer effectively for everything.  I am serving in places meant for others.  Then all kinds of ugly comes out - I'm stressed trying to do it on my own.  I'm unkind (to put it kindly) because I'm so focused on the doing that I forget the people along the way.  I begin to expect to be served while I'm serving - you must do what I want you to do while I'm serving you.

I need to take time before saying yes.  I need prayer.  I need to focus on my Papa and His plans.  Are my motives right?  Is the reason to say yes about me or Him? 

What I really want is the joy that comes from being obedient to God.  From sitting at His feet - clinging to Him.  I can't do that if I'm in a whirlwind of doing.  I want a smile on my face.  I want to be flexible.  I want to laugh more.  Enjoy these moments I have.