Sometimes I wonder why I get so serious. I know the Mom in me wants to get everything done - but to what expense? Is it worth it?
This week I had to back track two commitments I made. Yup, I had to send one email to say I couldn't make the school function and one phone call. God made me so uneasy about both - which I am thankful.
It's my desire to do it all - save the world on my own. But the world already has a Savior and I'm not it! What disrespect I show. How many times does God has to show me before I get it.
I can't volunteer effectively for everything. I am serving in places meant for others. Then all kinds of ugly comes out - I'm stressed trying to do it on my own. I'm unkind (to put it kindly) because I'm so focused on the doing that I forget the people along the way. I begin to expect to be served while I'm serving - you must do what I want you to do while I'm serving you.
I need to take time before saying yes. I need prayer. I need to focus on my Papa and His plans. Are my motives right? Is the reason to say yes about me or Him?
What I really want is the joy that comes from being obedient to God. From sitting at His feet - clinging to Him. I can't do that if I'm in a whirlwind of doing. I want a smile on my face. I want to be flexible. I want to laugh more. Enjoy these moments I have.